I don’t know why but I feel like you are saying good bye. It feels like that was our last message to each other.
Maybe you met a girl who is in the same vicinity as you are, someone who is not 3360 miles away. You just could not or maybe would not tell me about it.
I was preparing myself for this day, I guess I just would not acknowledge it, too scared to entertain the thought. The sex was amazing. I learned a lot from you. I was uninhibited with you. Felt like I have known you for a long time. I will miss you saying that I have a gorgeous bod and how you are the only person I allow to talk dirty to me. You were right, it’s because we clicked.
I was just telling my friend tonight that what I’m feeling and doing is not healthy. You are in fact 3360 miles away with no plans in the near future of changing continents for that matter. I asked myself a few times how I can date somebody from here if I’m always thinking about our time difference for when we chat. I guess I have an answer now.
Do not worry CK I will make good use of my time now. I will probably have time to go back to the gym and make sure I get back on my target weight. I will definitely focus on dating men who are within let say 50 miles away from me.
Thank you because I feel like you have given me the confidence in dating that I never had. Being with you for as short time as it was made me want to be bolder with my choices in dating, made me want to take risks and be brave in saying what I truly feel. You have sparked my fantasies and desires and made me feel that it is allowed and acceptable to have those feelings. I atchully think I am a more evolved person because of you.
I will miss you 3340 miles away and back.